I ate chocolate cake today. Chocolate fucking cake. I shouldn't have ate it! Why would I do that? I knew it would only make me feel bad about myself, why didn't I just stay away? I went to throw it up and I couldn't even do it. I threw up once and couldn't throw up any more, it was chunky and gross and awful. I'm a pig. I hate the way I look, and now look at what I did. I'm such a failure, there's something wrong with me. I don't know what to do now. Today is supposed to be my rest day in my work out schedule, but because of what I just ate I think I'm going to work out anyway. I'll only have one rest day this week. I have to make up for this, I'm a fucking cow.